Monday, January 4, 2010

Foothills and Valleys

I know the usual phrase is "Peaks and Valleys", but I can't say that I've made it to anything close to a peak yet. I have managed the foothills though. Sometimes I don't stay there for long before I find myself on the downward slope to the valley again. Last week I would say I was at one of the lowest places in that valley, but this week I am striding up to the foothills again. That's how it goes, up and down, up and down. So, sometimes I may write about the view from the valley floor, and sometimes the outlook may be more broad. I hope you don't mind when I describe the scene down low - I don't want to keep it completely to myself, but I also don't want you to think that I have lost hope of ever climbing out. I don't know what this journey is going to look like for me. I just take it how it comes. I'm not going to pressure myself to feel happy, or say that I feel at peace with my life. Sometimes I do, and sometimes I don't.


Amanda said...

I'm glad to hear that this week is a little more Foothilly than last week. We want to hear the good, bad and ugly. We are here for you and are prepared to be a sounding board for whatever you need/want to share. You are very loved!

Gina said...

Ditto what Amanda said. You are very loved and we all worry about and pray over you. It sounds like you have a good idea though; not forcing happiness. You're wonderful!

Laura said...

I know a little how you feel though for different reasons obviously.

One thing I had to figure out that feeling better is so individual. It is completely a Wendy owned and operated timeline.

as you know, people will want to "encourage" (push, force, etc) you to be better now, but it doesn't work like that.

The scariest parts were when I almost allowed it all to swallow me whole. Be careful of that, but take your time.

I too think about you lots. You are amazing and I love you!